My expeRiences through the biRth poRtal
My 1st BiRth JouRney
It has taken me many months to put this experience down on paper, which is ironic since I have urged many women to recount their story quickly so they don’t forget it, knowing it is something worth commemorating. Looking back now at my work in the birth world, I was carrying around and spewing so many ideals and dogmas without any tangible experiences to back them up yet. It is hard not to come down on myself as a fraud - who was I, the Maiden, in any authority to guide a woman into Motherhood when I myself had never made the journey? What scars and wounds did I impart on women through my naivety?
My 2ND BiRth JouRney
The birth of Myles started three days before he actually made his arrival. In preparation for my second labor, I had been doing a lot of personal work. I began my work with my somatic therapist at 32ish weeks and accepted my first job outside of the nursing field as an assistant and certified astrologer for my mentor. Rather than focusing on the experience of labor and what to expect within the stages of labor, I was focusing on my internal state and feeling empowered and steady. After my first birth, I knew the most important thing for me was to keep a close connection with my internal dialogue and control the narrative of my experience.